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| 12-14-08
my baby said "i love you." :) | | |
| It's the start of a beautiful era :)
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| nae ma eum eun ah pat seo cheon hwa gi roh neo reul man na myon seo
ta shi neun pol soo doh eop ta neun keu mam meh nan him mi bba jyeot seo
oh raen man ni eot seo neo wa ma ji mak tong hwa han ji doh
na goom eul wi han nae moh deun keot deul neo reul cham shi it keh haet seot ji
neo neun ah reum ta weot seot ji nae ga chi geum gga ji sal rah oh myon seo
na neun mol rat seo neh geh soom kyo jin keu ma eum eul
ni ga haeng bok ha gil pil get seo oo ri ji nan nal reh gi yeok deul reul
neo eui mi rae eui sal keu geot seh nam kyo ji neun han chang eui choo yeok
My heart hurt because I couldn't meet you or phone you
This heart of mine has fallen into hard times because I can't see you again
It's been a long time since I last spoke to you on the phone
In my dreams I can forget all about you for a while
You were beautiful and that let me live this far
I didn't know you were so important to this heart of mine
I will pray for your happiness
Memories of the days which we spent together
Your future life is there,
Leaving behind memories of one chapter of my life
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| Something happened today that made me go back to my past entries and read them all over again, word for word. I wrote this entry a year and eight months ago. Have I gotten wiser since then? Only time will tell whether my feelings will suddenly rush out without any warning.
We humans are interesting creatures. We’re capable of so many different emotions and achievements. Today, I’ve come to comprehend life in a different perspective. I have so many lifelong dreams. But instead of treating dreams as a template to live my life by or treating them as a foundation upon which to build my future, I’ve taken them for granted. Sometimes I naively regarded them as places of refuge to get away from whatever problems I faced. The creation of dreams is simply a product of our imagination. The product of our imagination is often far from being the truth. It is simply an opiate for our present worries. A dream opens a door into which we can seek solitude and some peace of mind. But often times, solitude is the last thing you need. Because true friends are always there to lend you their hands. They would ask if you needed someone to talk to. They would give you the hope you so dearly sought. They would help you forget your problems.
Humans are also selfish in nature. The act of attaining to one's self means the neglect of someone near you. To fulfill your own desires at the cost of another's suffering is selfish in nature. No matter how hard you justify your decision doesn't make it right.
True love is believing and providing the best for your loved ones. Believe. Trust. And utterly love her. Obstacles will often times force you to question your faith in a relationship. But true love is never forgetting what it means to be together to share your happiness or sorrow. And true love is never forgetting these ideals.
But loving someone isn't always enough. Turn of events often come to interfere with love. And sometimes, enough is enough and heartbreak is the result. People who say to be strong is to find strength in failure are lying to themselves. You usually linger in the past to find faults and weakness instead of finding strength. But to be able to recover from a heartbreak, that is strength. Often times one resort to sheer self-destruction. When hard times come, I find it to my liking to keep my head down (it's also easier to puke this way when you drink too much). Complete self-indulgence. Fuck this and fuck that and fuck you, the whole nine yards. Heartbreaks take time to heal. My heartbreaks always leave visible scars. They are scars because they will not go away. I’ve come to accept them. I accept them and move on. That’s the way love works. Scars form because healing is not perfect. The body refuses to regenerate to its former self. Rather, it wants to form a thicker protection over the damaged tissue, in case you hurt yourself again. The scar will often be there to remind you of everything, as a defense mechanism. You learn to deal with it. You WILL deal with it. That’s how we move on. Someone will eventually be there to help you with the process. My hope is that next time there won't be any more heartbreak. But hope is hope. My happiness comes from loving and being loved by someone. People have embarked on journeys lasting their lifetimes trying to find their true love. I believe I will find that someone. That’s what I live for.
Adjusting to a different perspective is hard. It will take time, as with any healing process. The brighter side is hoping that someone will come along and make you happy. Because happiness is what we live to achieve. And our body is meant to realize our dreams. | | |
| Brian McKnight
Back at One
It’s undeniable that we should be together
It’s unbelievable, how I used to say that I’d fall never
The basis is need to know
If you just don’t know how I feel
Then let me show you that now I’m for real
If all the things in time, time will reveal
Yeah
One, you’re like a dream come true
Two, just wanna be with you
Three, girl it’s plain to see
That you’re the only one for me and
Four, repeat steps one through three
Five, make you fall in love with me
If ever I believe my work is done
Then I’ll start back at one
(yeah)
It’s so incredible, the way things work themselves out
And all emotional, once you know what it’s all about, hey
And undesirable, for us to be apart
I never would’ve made it very far
’cause you know you got the keys to my heart
’cause...
Say farewell to the dark of night
I see the coming of the sun
I feel like a little child, whose life has just begun
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine
You threw out the life line
Just in the nick of time | | |
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